Book out on Friday!

Really exhausted. Mentally, physically and emotionally drained to my limits. Idk why a 16km fast march can be so hard on me. BAC has been great this week, plenty of free time and fun doing tower jumps. Still a nights out virgin though. Barely talked to Nikki this entire week. It's like I'm going through withdrawal symptoms. Really want to talk to her but I should refrain from doing so. Not talking so much would be better and I should just wait for her to reply. Sigh. Yup and I still miss you...

Airborne Ranger Commando

Starting airborne tmr. I really have no idea what we are going to do an the level of welfare. I hope we don't have to attend all the lessons but I doubt it will happen. Just survive airborne, not get injured and remain fit all the way. MUST REACH OCS! And I still miss Nikki sigh. I should end of each post like this

Trouble

I'm really in quite alot of trouble. I doubt I will ever get over Nikki in the short run. Not that I didn't try, or am not trying. It's just too difficult. I need to get a girlfriend. That just sounds desperate. But I guess what I need is a partner, someone I can really relate to and share. Someone whom I trust enough and really love. Sadly I think I have to wait until Uni to be attached. I miss the feeling where you care for someone and you know she cares for you too. Sick of this one sides feeling. Am I to endure this for the next two years? Please no get over her ASAP