So much for a week. I couldn't even resist for a day. I think I almost went out of my mind. I still have two overlays left. Seriously going to rage alr. There's this burning anger inside me. Blog alot this few days. Maybe it's cause I have alot to say and twitter is no longer safe for me to do so. I don't want to hurt people's feelings or affect them so it's better to just blog 

Been thinking about her since the moment I woke up at 8. It's like overcoming an addiction. COLD TURKEY! Really doesn't feel good although cold turkey is a bit of an exaggeration heh

Summary

Oh to sum things up, if Nikki saw this blog I'll probably be dead meat

7th month

My excuse is that tonight is the 7th month that's why I'm sending her home again. It's supposed to be the last time and I'm going to really stick by it. This time I'm serious and really giving up on her. Half of her personality and character is everything I look for in a girl. Nice, kind, soft spoken, funny, cute. Her other half is exactly what I hate in girls. More specifically, the kind of girls I avoid. She apparently is very high profile, the crazy fangirling I kind of it past it, but most of all she has really many male good friends. Call me crazy or what but yea I'm jealous. It doesn't matter anymore, I'm going to test myself on how long I can take. I guess probably a week. I'm going all the way already. I honestly don't know how to be good friends with a girl. Usually after good friends come girlfriend but this one wont work out. Enough time spent on her, I have to move on with my life. But Nikki will always be a good friend and I hope she finds a guy that will always love her and her next boyfriend will b her last.

Heh Nikki asked about this blog just now. Big mouth sia go tweet about it. How to show her when probably 90% of my posts are about her and like half of them have her name? Half of me wants to how her but I know I can't. Our relationship will just worsen then things will get awkward. But it's okay. I realize I still enjoy talking to her alot. It seems like she still is a person who I can really feel at ease talking to.

Now I just wish she would find a boyfriend quickly. So I can finally give up

Do I ever cross your mind?

Lazy

Been a long time since I last blogged. Always have words I want to say but never get the chance to say them. I usually end up just saying them in my head and forgetting about them. Anyway in OCS now. The culture is really different and to b honest, I can't wait to go back to Hendon. Commando pride. Also trying to get over Nikki now. Samuel also said that its about time and I kind of agree. But it's really not that easy. Still have about one more month? Or otherwise I can have something t think bout while I'm in Brunei. 15 Sept I will be flying. Going to miss her birthday too. Not that it means anything to her. Sigh so much for moving on