NS

Two weeks haven't blog. First book out from army today! Not really used to civilian life after those two weeks. But I'm glad for the rest. Most likely wont be able to meet Nikki during this book out except on Friday when we take results. Maybe the next time I see her will be a few weeks from now. Sad but true

This is it

Tmr going in already. I can't fall asleep. I feel the stress and the pressure and I know what this is. Fear. I can't do anything, no one can. All I can do is hope time passes quickly so I quickly enlist and end this waiting. At the same time, it's the official end for my dreams and hopes. If I had ever wished for a miracle, nothing is going to happen. So I wish you good luck and have fun. Press on.

Yet another day gone! It's 2am and its Chinese New Year's Eve! Sigh army time after CNY.. Should really get some sleep now. Anw played SC2 again after a really long time off it. Well I still suck at it so no surprises there!

Maybe I should delete some of my previous posts? They are not what I would be proud of. But I guess this blog is just for me to blow off steam without offending or alerting anyone. But then I know a small part of me hopes that she somehow manages to find this and know how I really feel

Know how heartbreak feels like?

The moment when you know that your heart just got broken. It's not related to anything that just happened, just memories of the past. When I see the two of you together, it's like my heart just felt so heavy. Just a deep gloom and its a feeling that comes close to the worst I have ever felt thus far. Hearing you talk about your past experiences with him brought back that exact same feeling. All I can do is just look down and hope the feeling goes away soon. I should stop living in the past otherwise my heart will be permanently broken! It's more then sad and no words can do it justice. Heartbreak is a bad, bad thing to experience....

NS

Back from Ah Boys to Men II. Reality check for me that I'm about to enter army in less then a week. There's this feeling that I can't describe. It's a mixture of fear, sadness, happiness and excitement. One moment I'm looking forward to army, another moment I'm dreading the moment I enter. Well, nothing much I can do now. Tomorrow going gym! Gonna work until I feel completely drained then go for a swim hehe. Must really push myself tmr and squeeze every bit of energy

2013

Yes! The blog managed to survive lol. Been wanting to blog for a long time but have been too lazy to download the app. Now it's one more week till enlistment and I have resumed blogging! Have too much that I wish to say but it's okay. Shall just keep it to myself and if I ever manage to maintain this blog, I shall post it here! So bye bye for now