Comms Ball

Been more than a month since my last post. Well obviously I had a lot of trouble finding a comms ball date. I got rejected 3 times before finally making it. Well first, Yan ling rejected me. She said it was weird. Well, up till now I still don't understand. All I needed was a friend to help me. I guess that was one of the most needy periods of my army life and..  enough said. As time went by, I got even more desperate. So I asked Suchi. Of course she rejected me because she was attached. But then it was expected so I didn't feel much other than a growing sense of desperation. So finally I asked Nikki. I thought maybe she could understand the desperation I was in and just help me out in the capacity of a friend. But in the end she didnt accept either. And she said because she didnt go with the other guy either. I just forgot his name lol. But I still remember I hate his guts. Oh well. But finally I asked jesslyn and she went with me! Quite a big surprise. Anyway, she is really a nice girl and the night turned out to be more enjoyable then I expected. Of course there were certain awkward moments but we moved past them. This episode only made me reflect on my time in jc. Of the 2 years, I only made friends with 2 girls, and only one extremely close female friend. On hindsight, I better choose my friends properly next time. I have wanted to say this for so long. A friend in need is a friend indeed. And apparently I do not have any female friends indeed. Just feeling frustrated today because I have been selling myself the lie that I have gotten over her. The emotions that I am feeling right now prove otherwise.