NS Checkup

Today went better then expected. But Weisheng didnt turn up. That ass. We postpone day for him still never come. Spain drew with Italy just now. Tmr go NS Checkup hope I get PesA! Idw some low pes please....

Haiz why nikki keep saying about her blog views but never update her blog... Kk Holland lost, hope Germany wins later! Gotta admit I have been having pretty rough nights for the past week alr... Going out tmr! HAVE FUN TO ME

Night

Yet another day passes by. MYE is really round the corner BUCK UP NIGEL!!! Today spent a couple of hours studying with Yan Ling. I think she was kinda sad to see me leave lols. I left at 5 while she studied till 10 heh.... If Nikki does get attached, I think I can only consider myself pretty kuch a failure. Please dont let it happen.... Please please please give me a chance

Hopefully my run of bad days comes to an end today! Tmr better study hard I got Monster Hunter to play nao kekeke... Tmr gonna study with yl! Better be productive! Im quite sure she doesnt like me....

Lazy to blog today. Just not a good day. Although I had Jack's place for lunch... Sometimes I really wonder if you are a blessing to me or not.

Fml

Bad night. Fucking pissed off nao with absolutely no reason. Its time to change things. I keep blaming myself for everything. Dragonboat, her, every fucking thing. For once its not gonna be my fault I have done my best and so its your fucking fault for not doing your part. I am sick and tired of being your second choice. Being patient with you and I receive no patience at all. Just go fuck yourself

Camp

Really didn't do anything today. Came home from camp and slept till 6+. Lol idk why I was so tired after only 1 day at camp. Really missing Nikki for idk what reasons :( I wish we could be tgt and that she knew about my feelings. It's really hard loving someone and not reciprocating. Nvm tmr got vertical marathon and my legs hurt. Found rashes lol. They better go away tmr. Need to sleep early so GTG! Just saying, I love you, Nikki Lim.