Maybe I should delete some of my previous posts? They are not what I would be proud of. But I guess this blog is just for me to blow off steam without offending or alerting anyone. But then I know a small part of me hopes that she somehow manages to find this and know how I really feel

Know how heartbreak feels like?

The moment when you know that your heart just got broken. It's not related to anything that just happened, just memories of the past. When I see the two of you together, it's like my heart just felt so heavy. Just a deep gloom and its a feeling that comes close to the worst I have ever felt thus far. Hearing you talk about your past experiences with him brought back that exact same feeling. All I can do is just look down and hope the feeling goes away soon. I should stop living in the past otherwise my heart will be permanently broken! It's more then sad and no words can do it justice. Heartbreak is a bad, bad thing to experience....

NS

Back from Ah Boys to Men II. Reality check for me that I'm about to enter army in less then a week. There's this feeling that I can't describe. It's a mixture of fear, sadness, happiness and excitement. One moment I'm looking forward to army, another moment I'm dreading the moment I enter. Well, nothing much I can do now. Tomorrow going gym! Gonna work until I feel completely drained then go for a swim hehe. Must really push myself tmr and squeeze every bit of energy

2013

Yes! The blog managed to survive lol. Been wanting to blog for a long time but have been too lazy to download the app. Now it's one more week till enlistment and I have resumed blogging! Have too much that I wish to say but it's okay. Shall just keep it to myself and if I ever manage to maintain this blog, I shall post it here! So bye bye for now

I realised I wasn't that a close friend after all. I think I really overestimated myself. Ruins the day thanks. You have that ruining day effect on me.

Too lazy to blog liao. I predict this blog will die off soon... Hehe

Quite sian today. Passed physics with 50%! Unexpected. No mood to study at all. Tmr ends at 235 I think. No playing com. Must start doing work alr. Come on! Don't allow yourself to be discouraged now! Anyway I think we will be getting back Maths and Econs case study tmr. GLHF! (Good Luck Happy Failing?)