Book out on Friday!

Really exhausted. Mentally, physically and emotionally drained to my limits. Idk why a 16km fast march can be so hard on me. BAC has been great this week, plenty of free time and fun doing tower jumps. Still a nights out virgin though. Barely talked to Nikki this entire week. It's like I'm going through withdrawal symptoms. Really want to talk to her but I should refrain from doing so. Not talking so much would be better and I should just wait for her to reply. Sigh. Yup and I still miss you...

Airborne Ranger Commando

Starting airborne tmr. I really have no idea what we are going to do an the level of welfare. I hope we don't have to attend all the lessons but I doubt it will happen. Just survive airborne, not get injured and remain fit all the way. MUST REACH OCS! And I still miss Nikki sigh. I should end of each post like this

Trouble

I'm really in quite alot of trouble. I doubt I will ever get over Nikki in the short run. Not that I didn't try, or am not trying. It's just too difficult. I need to get a girlfriend. That just sounds desperate. But I guess what I need is a partner, someone I can really relate to and share. Someone whom I trust enough and really love. Sadly I think I have to wait until Uni to be attached. I miss the feeling where you care for someone and you know she cares for you too. Sick of this one sides feeling. Am I to endure this for the next two years? Please no get over her ASAP 

I was right!

Well what did I say? Class outing really cancelled because of lack of attendance. Previously I was disappointed. Now it's just like WHAT THE FUCK. Nothing else more to say. My stomach is just being a fucker today. Food poisoning I guess. Sakura is really an expensive meal. Paid alot, more than just money. I think I can round up the count for today at 6 times I had diarrhea. Champion.

Back from a long hiatus

Finally blogging again. Spent a long month in Taiwan. Don't really feel like blogging about my experiences there. This blog isn't for public viewing anyway, it's more for my ranting. But it's been a poor block leave so far. The haze has been really bad and I guess the only thing it affects is my mood. Supposed to meet Nikki yesterday for dinner but cancelled because the haze was too bad. What to do? JTB. I doubt I'm going to meet her during block leave. I think it's better this way, to stay like virtual friends. Probably we'll drift apart after some time. I'm just curious to see what happens after uni begins. I probably was too optimistic or should I say naive in the past. Just keep 9 March fresh in my memory. And also I was supposed to meet JY tmr. Cancelled as well because he wanted to go out with his mum. Well this sucks. All I need now is for the class outing to be cancelled. Which is not impossible. I can even think of a reason like people can't make it or couldn't agree on an activity. Well this block leave really couldn't come at a worse time. I'm so tempted to just stay home and sleep and play comp everyday. Sometimes I wonder if I do have depression. Perhaps not Because I'm too crazy for that. But periods like this really bring my morale down. Now my life consists of army. Is there nothing else for me? Time for OCS and as usual, leave all problems at the gate.

Last one already. Going to leave soon. I really have this anxiety problem about being late. The feeling sucks. It's like having bees in my stomach. Anw goodbye to everything and everyone. One month is a long time. Once again I just keep thinking about her. Goodbye to you too esp. Sigh byes

Taiwan

I'm going to miss Nikki alot. I wish she could see this.