The End

Last night I found out Nikki finally likes another guy again. I knew for a long time coming that today would arrive but I never knew what to do. I still don't. 9 March. The end of 2 years of liking her. It really ends now at this very moment. So how to move forward? Idek how to talk to her now. I never talk frequently to girls unless I like them. But it has been a habit to talk to Nikki already. So will I lose this friend? It really is a dilemma over what to do. Why not you teach me what to do? I honestly have had my heart broken enough times already and now I don't care if you are sad or what. Maybe I will never talk to her again. Who knows? But the worst thing is that field camp is tmr and I have to mentally prepare myself for the horrors ahead. If I am not ready, I am going to suffer like never before. So I guess I just shall not talk to her for the next 1 week. Not like I have any choice. But maybe I will know what to do next by then. Is liking her and getting to know her the biggest regret of my life yet?